I'm Alive!

Hey, look, the girl who said she’s going to update her blog more often is here, guys…. How shameless. But yeaaaah, if anyone ever concerned about me don’t worry I’m not dead, just a little bit busy and lazy as usual. So I’m going to talk about myself a bit today since I don’t really have anything else worth posting (sorry). :>

 It’s February and it’s raining season already; it rains a lot here. From romantic drizzle to horrible blizzard, it’s practically raining every day, here. Do I ever get bored? No way! I like how rain sounds and how it’d bring inspirations. But I’d be lying if my number one reason is not because rain makes perfect weather for sleeping. Though I don’t really like it if it’s raining when I’m at school…. Sleeping at physics class surely not helping my already bad physics skill.

not even bothering to spell “physics” right anymore

 Next week I have physics quiz on Tuesday and math quiz on Wednesday. How am I going to survive…. Aah, I wonder why I chose Science as my major in high school…. It’s not like I’m good at this kind of stuff. (heaaavy sigh) I’m not even sure that I’ll choose a science-related major for college—I really really really don’t want to face this stuff again in college!!  To be honest, I’m sort of interested in medicine and health also architecture (this one needs physics but it still involves a lot of drawing so I’m ok with it). But I’m not sure, my mind is still full of question mark?? You know, like, “?!?!?! What am I going to do with my life.” Why is the future so unclear? OTL But I guess that’s what make future future. (haha)

By the way, as you can see on the pic my hair has gotten longer again! Well, it’s not like it’s gonna stop growing anytime soon. … Wait don’t jinx it I don’t want to get bald-

I wanted to grow my hair long because I wanted to dye my hair- you know, the ombre thing that was quite popular some time ago. I thought that if the color doesn’t suit my taste, I could just cut my hair. But now my hair is already this long… I feel like it’ll be such a waste if what I’m worried about happens and I had to cut my two years worth of hard work (?). So in the end, I don’t dye my hair at all.

I’m not the sort of person who takes care of her appearance, so having a long hair is troublesome actually. Since I don’t like hair getting on my face, I go with ponytail or messy bun (the real messy bun, not the one that took hours to make it look alright) most of the time. For that reason, my straight hair has become slightly wavy…. Also, I don’t bother to apply conditioner on the lower part of my hair and it only makes my hair wavier (because of dryness, sadly).

I’m thinking of going to the hairdresser, but I don’t want to go there alone. It’s kind of… embarrassing, since I’m not used with this stuff. I’d go with my mother, but she’s been so busy so in the weekend, she’d prefer staying at home for some rest…. The same goes with my sisters. And it’s not like going to the hairdresser with your father is an option…..

Even though I said I don’t take care of my appearance, I’m rather fond of fashion. Or, more like, I like dressing up. Eccentrically. Also drawing cute clothes. They’re fun to draw. But I’m not good with male fashion since their clothes look all the same to me. (haha) Still, I found drawing clothes are hard.

does this explain why I drew him topless www

Some of you who has been following my blog may recognize him. Or maybe not since every time I draw him somehow he always turns out to be different kind of person. //bad artist// Anyway he's Setya and actually this is a redraw of 2013 doodle. I'm going to post the comparison later when I have better internet. Since then, please be patient. ^w^)/ *throws kisses* You can see the comparison here! ^^

So that’s for today’s update. I’d be really grateful if anyone could drop me some links on male anatomy or clothes tutorial. I need them so bad. Anyway, I’ll catch up with you guys later when I finished wondering why I can’t draw ikemen for my own sake….

*lies down*

*contemplates on life*

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