:)

today, i joined my family on the dinner table after such a long time.

my mom complimented me, "your face looks brighter now." it was just a passing comment thrown between the sound of spoons clattering with glass plates, but i am happy.

ever since my relapse in october 2020, i would constantly feeling gloomy, and i guess, it reflected on my face. i would smile, but not out of happiness but out of satire.

but this month, i started doing my daily yoga exercise again, i distanced my self from one of my greatest emotional pain: my ex, and face the biggest obstacle in my life right now: my thesis. i made a progress, slowly, day by day, and for the first time in a while, i feel productive.

it is such a nice feeling.

two days ago, i even would pick up a pen and draw- something that i could not do for the past 6 months for i would loathe myself for being so bad at it and i would get disgusted at myself. but two days ago, i drew something- not even for me but for a friend. it was a birthday present. and hoping that she would be happy receiving it, made me happy too.

i hope, tomorrow, too, i could feel happy.